New start here...

so I am calling it quits on Isabella's babyjellybeans blog after 2 years. I figured that it was high time to stop it as I had not posted in awhile so I will be blogging about her journey as well as the rest of the kiddos here. I am not really good at this kind of thing, but have seen some really great blogs that have inspired me , so why not!?! Not sure how often I will post, but blogging on Xan's birth felt good, so we will see! I have had a rough couple of months... emotionally. I have really been grieving my dad. I know kinda weird after almost 10 years. It started with Xan's graduation, wishing my dad could have been there, he loved Xan more than life itself. Then it was Father's Day, my dad's birthday, Xan's first car and then his turning 18. Whew, what an action packed 2 months. Of course on top of all of this was Isabella's reaction to all the commotion. After sitting down and taking inventory I realized it was no wonder I felt crummy! So I know that I have to turn it over to God and after having several people pray for me, I do feel better. I know that it is a process and that I do have to have God's help, to let go of this grieving. My dad was such an awesome dad and I was and always will be daddy's little girl! I just so wish he could still be here... So anyway, thought if I blogged about some of my thoughts, and got them outta my head, that maybe it would help. So here we go...